PLEASE NOTE: If you are struggling with infertility or are currently trying to conceive and you DON'T want to read about my pregnancy (which I totally understand), I recommend starting at the beginning of the blog (March 2010) and reading from there. I find out I'm pregnant in June 2011 so there is a lot of trying to conceive posts in between that you might find funny, helpful or relatable. Wishing you all the luck in the world!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Non-Mother's Day!

I’ve given today’s blog entry a lot of thought. As someone who has been trying to conceive for over a year, Mother’s Day is an unintentionally crappy day. It’s the equivalent of using birth control when you’re single. Every time you take that birth control pill or insert that NuvaRing, it’s a reminder of how you have little to no chance of getting laid anytime soon.

At first, for today’s blog entry, I was going to collect funny quotes of advice our mothers and/or our mothers-in-laws have given us about trying to conceive. People have either posted or emailed me so many funny stories about things their moms or mother-in-laws have said that you simply can’t make up. Some of my favorites were Sienna (her blog is: http://timetomakeababy888.blogspot.com/) whose mom told her she wasn’t getting pregnant because she had long hair and it was taking up all the nutrients from her body thereby leaving her infertile. Incidentally, Country singer Crystal Gayle, who has floor length hair, also has two children. I’m just sayin’.

Then, there was another woman who emailed me anonymously. She told me that her mother-in-law informed her that if she would just ditch her maiden name and take her husband’s last name once and for all, she’d be pregnant in no time. Huh? Are fetus’s checking ID’s now for last name verification? Really?

After some more thought though, I decided that it might not be nice to make fun of other people’s mothers on Mother’s day… so I was just going to make fun of my own mother on Mother’s Day. I waited for almost a year to tell my mother about our trying to conceive issues. I waited simply because worrying is her hobby. Seriously – some like to sit down and knit or scrapbook. My mom seems to enjoy sitting down and lamenting about everything that could possibly go wrong in the world. After I finally told her about our situation, there was a good month where she couldn’t talk about it without sounding like I was dying from terminal illness. Somehow though, over time, she managed to sound more cheery and even tried to be helpful by making suggestions such as, “Have you tried having sex every other day as opposed to every day?”

I should quickly mention that my mom is a former Catholic School attendee and she’s never been comfortable with talking about sex. Growing up, she always told me that when I wanted to lost my virginity, I should come and talk to her. When that day arrived however, and I approached her about it, she immediately said, “I don’t want to talk about this.” and walked out of the room. Ah, well. She did try.

So when she brought up the every other day suggestion, I thought maybe she was more comfortable discussing the topic of sex. I responded with, “Oh yeah… we’ve tried it all. Every day, every other day, me on top, me on the bottom, him behind…” I believe it was after the “me on top” comment that she lost consciousness. Again, she tried.

After further contemplation, I thought that making today’s blog about joking about my mother wasn’t too nice either so I considered making today’s piece just be about me on Mother’s Day and how I’m still not a mom. That felt too depressing though and I don’t like depressing. I can’t even watch the “Bambi”, “The Lion King” or “Dumbo” as I can’t get through the sad parts. I swear – they should really edit bummer movies for the over emotional. “Steel Magnolias”, for example, could end a half hour early. That way, no one dies, all is well and I don’t have to see Darryl Hannah any longer than necessary.

So, after much thought, I’ve decided to dedicate today’s blog entry solely to women like me; the “Non-mothers” of the world. Through this blog, Twitter and Facebook, I’ve met so many incredibly strong, brave, funny, compassionate women all who want nothing more than to have a baby. They willingly subject themselves to emotional, physical and mental torture in the hopes of having a family. Most don’t do that until after they have kids… but these TTC women put themselves through it without any guarantees of success. It is a true leap of faith.

Don’t get me wrong – To all the mom’s out there, you deserve love and respect today but respectfully, this is my blog and I want to use today’s entry to acknowledge my fellow fertility-challenged friends. So to them, I want to directly say the following:
  1. You are brave and for that, you have my utmost respect.
  2. Eat chocolate, ice cream, or have a margarita whenever you need one.
  3. Never get a haircut or buy a chainsaw when on hormones. Trust me on this.
  4. Don’t ever, not for one second, lose your sense of humor.
  5. Don’t ever, not for one second, lose hope.
  6. Don’t ever, not for one second, watch the show “19 and Counting” on TLC. It’ll just piss you off.
  7. Never apologize or feel bad for day dreaming about punching someone in their face.
  8. You’re not alone. There are countless out there like us.
  9. If you want to be a mother, it may not happen in the way you imagined, but you will find a way to make it happen somehow.
  10. Please remember to have sex occasionally just for fun no matter when it is in the cycle.
  11. I urge you to tell any of your friends or family who just gave birth all about the nap you took for no reason.
  12. Watch RuPaul’s Drag Rage and The Golden Girls as often as possible.
  13. Don’t let this define who you are as a person or a woman.
  14. Ignore the annoying people… even though there is JUST SO MANY OF THEM.
And lastly, #15: Never forget that we’re not failures. We’ve done nothing wrong and we’ve done nothing to deserve this.

To all my non-mothers out there, from the bottom of my heart, I’m wishing you a happy May 9th. You are my people and I salute you.

Now let’s all go out, eat some sushi, drink some wine and a big cup of coffee, and then put on a bikini, get in a hot tub and enjoy the quiet and freedom! Happy Non-Mother’s Day!

21 comments:

Baby bump bound said...

SWEEEEET!!!!!!!!!!!!! That made my day!!!!

LowFatLady said...

Happy Non-Mother's day. This was a great entry and it made me laugh. Thanks ;)

Liz said...

love it J! Thank you for this. I brought a box of tissues to the computer with me because I just knew that Facebook would make me depressed (look at my baby! look at my bump! i'm a great mom! wheee!), and reading your blog absolutely made me smile!

Happy Non-Mother's to you too lovely!

Ana said...

What a great and inspirational post. It improved my day. You hit many things I was feeling. Thank you so much. Happy Non-Mother's Day.

The Baby Race said...

Happy non-mother's day to you too!

I loved your list and have a hard time with remembering #15, but I'll do my best.

Anonymous said...

I just received my beta after our first IVF today. Negative. So today is a very gloomy (non) mother's day.

On a happier note, I just wanted to say that I found your blog yesterday and it made me laugh hysterically at points. I think it may have been the only time I smiled yesterday let alone laughed. The bag lady at Starbucks? I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. Thank you for all of your wonderful posts and your sense of humor.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for this post! I had been having a really rough day, and needed a laugh! Its so good to know that others feel the same way I do about this day!

Clara said...

thank you for the post, happy non mother´s day to you too!!
I´m new to all of this, just found out about my fertility challenge, and this mother´s day is -or was- killing me.
I´m starting my own blog, if you feel like, come by visit!!

Katie said...

Thank you for the words that so many of us non-mothers need to hear! Thank you for making us laugh, and cry (could be the hormones too!). :)

Jessica said...

Came across your blog from Twitter...thank you for this post, it made me laugh!

Secret Sloper said...

You are awesome, J. Happy May 9th to you, too. Today I will congratulate myself over the fact that my boobs are still perky and firm.

sienna said...

happy non-mothers day to you too!! my big prayer yesterday was that this would be the last non-mothers day for all of us :o) as thrilled as i'm going to be whenever i manage to cross over to 'the other side', i'm promising myself that i'm always going to think of all the girls who have trouble getting pregnant on every mother's day to come.

that was hysterical that you tried to talk to your mom about sex. the "all day every day" part made me choke on me tea, thank you very much :o) and that your mom walked out on you when you tried to tell her that you were gonna lose your v-card ... priceless.

i'm glad this holiday is over and that we're all intact. i'm still struggling with whether or not i should cut my hair. my coworker just chopped off a foot of her hair and she looks awful. granted, i'm sure *i* would look lovely, but still :op that MIL who is trying to convince her daughter in law that she'll get preggers if she just changes her name sounds shameless, yet hysterical. hmm, i wonder if i should take said advice.

Tillie said...

LOVED this!!!! crap i guess that means I need to take the advice!! :) Hope you had a great non-mother's day.

Hope said...

#7 totally cracked me up. I was dead serious when I told my husband to just hit the pregnant girl that waived at me with our car. ha!

keepingmyeyesonjesus said...

Wow! I love this post! It is funny, but also deep... I wish every infertile could read it, every non-mothers day!

Carolyn said...

I just recently found this blog. This particular post has been the most cathartic for me though. I have spent the last week crying over more bad news from the fertility doc. Thank you for showing me how NOT alone I am. I wish the best for you and your husband. I hope you can announce soon that you will be parents in the near future.

the2weekwait said...

Carolyn -- thank you for this posting. I'm so sorry you're going through what you're going through. Please feel free to email and vent: the2weekwait@gmail.com. Thank you for your well-wishes and I'm sending you the very best right back.

Lindsey said...

Hi there, just found your blog through a friend and I love it! I just laughed out loud at least five times reading this post (and, maybe alternating with possibly misty eyes while reading the list :) ). Thank you for the best Mother's Day salute to non-mothers, ever. :)

Aspgriswold said...

I can not thank you enough for writing this blog! I have found so much comfort in your posts....especially this one. My husband and I have just started on this process. We've been trying unsuccessfully for over a year and have our first appointment next week with a reproductive endocrinologist. I have a lot of mixed feelings about everything. Finding your blog has significantly helped me and I look forward to reading the rest!

Anonymous said...

This is a good summary.. i feel much better after reading your blog. TTc is the most difficult task in this world

Anonymous said...

Ahhh just recently found your blog as I'm going thru my first cycle, and talk of the up coming mothers day has been pushing my buttons no end, so it was lovely to find this post! xo

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